Baby Sumatran Orangutan with arms rased

You know it’s funny, how sometimes our lives seem to go in circles.

Except sometimes, the circles are really spirals, they bring us to a higher level of whatever it is.

This is something that came out very powerfully for me tonight as I thought about an idea that I’d been fantasizing about for many years, except this time I wasn’t just thinking about it as a dream, but rather as a goal. A gigantic, hairy, audacious goal, but a goal nonetheless. About a week ago in the first session of the Cash and Joy Provocateurs, Catherine Caine asked me to do just that. She asked each of us in the group to share our Big Harry Audacious Goal. It wasn’t something I had thought much about, but after just a moment I realized that there is one thing that kept coming up in different ways almost for as long as I can remember, and I knew that this was my BHAG.

I want to share it with you, but I also need to understand that while this goal is tremendous at the moment it’s very much what Havi calls β€œa tiny, sweet thing.” So it needs to be handled with care, and that’s what I’m doing here.

So what is this thing?

It’s an event, actually a series of events, each one with over 10,000 people in attendance. A sort of rally of transformation, alchemy, wonder, spirit and outright magic.

I can feel how my whole life is leading to this point, for me to be standing on the stage telling stories, weaving processes of spiritual alchemy, as we gently but powerfully allow the shifts within each of us to take the next steps becoming even more ourselves.

This isn’t just a speech, or a workshop. It’s a fully immersive experience. We use lighting, projections, sound and other tools of the theater to create an environment which envelops everyone who attends, and completely surrounds them. This environment can change and morph from one moment to the next as the stories and dreams unfold.

I could go on and on, I think I have shared what wants to be shared at the moment about this.

Let me answer some questions that you might be thinking before I go:

When will this happen?

I don’t know, it will happen when it’s ready, and I’m ready.

Where will it be? How much will it cost? Where do I sign up?

I’m thrilled that you’re interested, but I don’t really know that either.

Don’t you realize that this will never work? That events like this are too expensive, too hard, crazy, or whatever?

I truly appreciate your concern, and I’m not trying to do this next week. I know that there’s a lot to it, and that there are probably lots of places where things can go wrong (there are in every endeavor, large or small.) But please understand that the biggest mistake I could make is to not do this, it is the calling of my heart.

Can I help?

Maybe? Probably? I’m not in a place yet to look for partners, or people to help, or even know what kind of help I would be looking for. However, that will change, when the time comes, so watch this space. If you like, leave a note in the comments about your interest, and I’ll keep you in mind.

Today I want to be very specific about what kind of comments I’m looking for. As I said, this is a tiny, sweet thing, which needs to be protected and cared for as it grows and solidifies. I would love your support, and if reading this sparks something super exciting in you, I’d love to hear about that too. If you think I’m nuts, you’re probably right, but please, keep it to yourself for the moment. I’m not looking for advice, criticism, or even really suggestions, I most love to hear how this resonates with you, in your heart, if there’s something you truly feel moved to share.

Thank you for letting me share my Big Hairy Audacious Goal with you. Don’t be surprised if I don’t talk about this much for a while, then again don’t be surprised if I do. I’m just excited to see how my tiny, sweet thing grows.

  • Karen J

    Way Cool!
    Happy makin’-it-happen … and a tender-kiss-on-the-head too.

    Bright Blessings ~ Karen J

    • Thanks Karen! It’s really exciting!

  • I think this is quite a brilliant, audacious, sweet thing. Sometime, when it’s less fragile, I’d love to talk about it. I love immersion as an artform.

    • Thanks Tori! I totally agree about immersion as an artform – it’s such a cool and powerful thing.

      • @YaelSaar

        Yes! Yes!! Yes!!!
        Toasting to immersion as an art form and to tiny hairy sweet things. I’m so glad I found this. This post, and your work.

  • Wow, Andy, I know you can make it happen and it sounds so exciting.

    • Thanks Kirsty! I’m really excited to see it develop.

      • Β I just so happened upon this blog so I didn’t have a chance to go through the whole website..YET..(-: but I gotta know..did it happen? And What does it look like a year later???!!!

  • It sounds awesome!

    I’m definitely one of those who is interested in more news as you have it.

    It sounds like such a wonder-full, magickal event! πŸ™‚

    Thnx for sharing this with us! πŸ™‚

    ETA: and I LOVE the pic! Way to go, Tori! πŸ˜€

  • Wenwowo

    Spiritual alchemy is what the world needs. The time is near and you have the talent for the wide audiences you seek. Count me in and my positive thoughts on keeping this hairy, audacious sweet thing nurtured.